i’m listening to old albums i first heard as a kid and i’m getting this heavy, haunting feeling of guilt. listening as an adult, i thought i was re-experiencing these songs, but i was truly hearing them for the first time. i felt the sense of adventure i yearned for as a kid, but never got. i saw my childhood streets again, just less saturated. i would trade an hour of my time today; knowing i what i know, having gone through i’ve gone through, grieving past traumas; for an hour as a kid to listen to these albums again, for the real first time.